Today would have been my mums 71st birthday. I would have taken the day off work and spent it with her. Spoiling her and having her tell me off for spending too much.
Instead I worked today, it took my mind off her not being here.
I miss her terribly, I miss her advice and guidance, I miss her voice and her cuddles.
The last two years of her life were hard on her, being so ill, watching her slip away in the final year was hard to watch. But I couldn’t leave her to do it on her own, (I say that like I was the only one, my two sisters visited as much as they could, her older grandchildren would stop by to make her smile and my dad visited her daily) I know she would have been there for me. She was there for me when my daughter passed away. Making that decision as a family to place her in a care home was hard, we all wanted her with us, but it wasn’t safe for anyone.
But I’ll remember her being the wonderful mum she was. Thinking of other before herself. Her laugh and smile kept a smile on my face today.
Happy Birthday Mum 💋